Life has been BBB – Busy, Beautiful and ever so Blessed!
DAD – My dad has been home after 2 weeks in the hospital. The doctors said that it would take 6 months for him to fully recover, but I am happy to say that my dad is recuperating at an incredible speed! The doctors are amazed! I am relieved and happy!
TRIP TO BRAZIL – I am going home to see my family!! yippie!! Yesterday was a bit crazy at work so it was hard to concentrate on the trip details but by the end of the day I had settled on a date and reserved the tickets but decided to sleep on it and make a final decision today. So today when I went to make the purchase I realized that the date I had chosen was September 11. I am shocked that the significance of that date had not hit me yesterday. I am not sure how I feel about flying on September 11.
Well, Just now I finalized the purchase. September 12 it is! So I guess now we all know how I feel about flying on 9/11.
HIP – My hip is acting up again. It started when I tried taking tennis lessons again. Right now I am doing the Brazilian way; I am ignoring it and hoping that it goes away by itself. But seriously, I will need to go back to physical therapy, but I will deal with that when I return from my trip. I may be hanging my tennis racket for good. But not my skis, never!!
WORK – Busy, busy, busy! Enough said!
DATING – Dating has been an adventure. The best part of it all is how I have been handling it. I have been laughing at the bad experiences and cherishing the good ones. I have made new friends. This has been such an amazing learning and growing time. This whole experience is showing me more and more what I need, want and deserve. I am not willing to settle. I am fine with compromise but I am not willing to put up with less than what I am willing to give in return.
“Some people come in our life as blessings. Some come in your life as lessons.”
― Mother Teresa
I am still amazed at the attitude and behavior of some men, well some people really. They are so short sighted, looking for immediate gratification and not long lasting happiness.
The other evening I had a great date. It was the first time in a long time where there were sparks! He seemed great, smart, professional, a great kisser (yep we kissed on the first date), and good looking. I normally never fall for looks, but this person seemed to have it all. I saw the potential and didn’t hide it.
As expected he contacted me right away after the date saying he had a great time. Next day he starts texting me and instead of asking me out on a proper date he hints he wants to come over to my apartment and “snuggle”. When I mentioned that he was going too fast he tried to make me feel bad and childish. He mentioned we would just snuggle. I felt like asking him: How old are you? 15? Do you think I am going to fall for that?
“sex is the consolation you have when you can’t have love”
― Gabriel García Márquez
For a moment I felt as if there was something wrong with me and perhaps I was being too immature and too suspicious. I also felt that perhaps I shouldn’t have kissed him on the first date and let him know that I liked him. I am glad to say that those feelings lasted for about a second. I realized he was just trying to go for a quick shag and was not relationship minded.
I often say that I never blame a man for trying, so I still don’t blame him but he was just dumb. He knew I liked him and we could have had a fun relationship, yet his rush to get physically intimate made him lose out on the long run. Now we will never know what the future could have look like.
“But when a woman decides to sleep with a man, there is no wall she will not scale, no fortress she will not destroy, no moral consideration she will not ignore at its very root: there is no God worth worrying about.”
― Gabriel García Márquez, Love in the Time of Cholera
Of course when I set him straight he started backpedaling and telling me I misunderstood him, but by then the damage was already done. I have said no to seeing him again. (true story, he just called now and wants to take me out to dinner tonight. answer is still no) He did me a favor by showing me his intentions right away. Also this was a good test to see how much I liked him, and I certainly didn’t like him enough.
Don’t get me wrong, I like snuggling, affection, intimacy, sex, as much as the next person. Well, I am a healthy, young, vibrant Brazilian woman who hasn’t gotten any in a long time, so perhaps I like it a little more than most right now 🙂 but I am not willing to forget my morals and what I want for my life. I got to be able to look in the mirror in the morning and respect the face I see looking back at me.
I am not judging anyone that has one night stands or casual relationships. I kind of envy people that can be that free with their bodies and themselves. But I know I can’t! And you know what? I think I am proud of that! 🙂