“Do not think of todays failures, but of the success that may come tomorrow.” ― Helen Keller
To prove I am not a mosaic one-trick-pony, here is a tray I just finished 🙂
I forgot to take pictures from the beginning. I was too engrossed into already planning my next table (truth).
I am really getting into a good routine with mosaics. I go to the studio every Saturday or Sunday for a couple of hours. It feels great to pursue one of my passions, and not just do it once in a blue moon.
“We can do anything we want as long as we stick to it long enough.” ― Hellen Keller
Now I need to tackle learning French and skiing.
French – I start teaching myself every few months. I guess what I really need is to make sure to stay the course. Every time is like starting over when I really should be fluent by now.
“There are no shortcuts to any place worth going” ― Helen Keller
Skiing – This one requires more effort. Not only it requires more money and planning it requires me to let go of the fear of speed. The moment I pick up any speed I panic. I need many more miles under my skis to hopefully get more comfortable.
Now with Covid everything became even more difficult. Who knows when I will have a chance to go again. I want to book a trip but all is so uncertain that I think I will wait awhile longer.
But I am not giving up. I will be perfectly comfortable skiing blues one day. Mark my words! 🙂
“Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them; but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight.”― Helen Keller
I went to Brazil in April, stayed 10 days and then brought Mom to the NY for her semiannual visit. With Mom here there wasn’t a moment to spare. We did the usual trips to the casino and to various stores, while juggling work stuff.
I went back to Brazil in May to take mom home. I stayed one week. While in Brazil I normally take time to organize something around my parent’s house, always wanting to make things easier and more practical for them. I also receive the visit of many friends that stop by to say hello. It does get tiring.
The day following my return to NY 2 cousins arrived for a short vacation. They stayed at my apartment 3 days. It was non-stop. Since they don’t like shopping we mostly went to parks and restaurants. We visited the Pepsico Gardens (The Donald M. Kendall Sculpture Gardens) – absolutely beautiful; and Glen Island Park – my local park right by the water. We also went bowling, ate at a Colombian restaurant among others, and went to City Island in search of relative (more on that later).
“Get busy living or get busy dying.” ― Stephen King
With all that going on, still there is work to deal with. The audit is not over yet, but so far the questions they have been asking has to do with the brokers and not with financials or any of the other areas I deal with. We also hired 2 new employees and with that I have a little more on my plate to get them on-board.
There will also be changes coming up at work that should be better for me but I am still not sure how it will all work out. I will be talking more about that in the upcoming months.
On the flight to Brazil in May when I got to my seat there was an envelope. It was a handwritten note from the lead flight attendant. In it she was thanking me on behalf of Delta for my loyalty. I know it is just a note but I really felt special and put a smile on my face. You go Delta!!
D. and I managed to see each other for dinner on May 10th. We will see each other one evening this week. He slashed the price of his house by hundreds of thousands to try to sell it quick, but so far no takers. As I may have mentioned previously, his divorce is not happening until this house is sold.
In the meantime I haven’t gone on any dates with anyone else. I just didn’t have the time. I have time to go on a date, but not for all the work and research involved with online dating. I plan on diving back into dating now. I fear waiting for D. and nothing ever happening; or even worst, him becoming free and I realizing that I am not really into him.
“It is not enough to be busy; so are the ants. The question is: What are we busy about?” ― Henry David Thoreau
“Travel brings power and love back into your life.” – Rumi
Park City it is! I am excited to be going skiing in Utah. I have never been there before and I do want to see every US state, so another one off the list. The hotel and the flights are booked and paid for so there is no changing my mind now.
Now I have to reserve the skis and schedule the lessons. I think I will take a couple of days of lessons and the other 3 days will be on my own. I am going alone, so I think I will play by ear and not plan every single moment.
I have been trying to learn how to ski for a few years now. Three years ago I had an awesome experience in Snowmass, CO. I took group lessons with this female instructor who was phenomenal. I wish I would remember her name. I gained so much confidence with her. I learned different skills; I even did a jump and a half-pipe. For that moment in time I even lost my fear of speed. I was on top of the world.
Then 2 years ago I went to Whistler and the mountain kicked my behind. I started on the blues and ended up on the bunny hill. It was very icy so I think that made me nervous and eroded my confidence. Not only that, but I also think that I was too over confident and a bit too conceited.
I have been to Whistler 3 times and even with this bad experience it remains one of my favorite places in the world, and I will definitely return at some point soon.
“Though we travel the world over to find the beautiful, we must carry it with us, or we find it not.” –Ralph Waldo Emerson
From the bad experience in Whistler I learned:
1) Overconfidence can backfire. I was in a group and the other people were slower and less experienced than I was, so I was having an attitude, not externally, but internally. In my mind I was the best and they were slowing me down. That until I panicked and froze on a blue run. I need to keep my ego in check and be more patient with others and myself.
2) I have to realize that different days and different conditions will bring about different experiences. It was pure ice and freezing in Whistler, so it would certainly be a different experience than fluffy power and warmer temperatures in Colorado. I need to better manage my expectations. The best is not to have any.
3) I don’t have to let setbacks define me and even stop me. I am going to continue. So I have to re-start, so what? No one is keeping score other than me. And even if I am a beginner forever, who cares? As long I enjoy every moment, being grateful for the opportunity every skiing day is a success. (or any day doing anything)
4) It showed me how much I really love skiing and what I am made of. Even at my worst, even when I felt terrified to leave the bunny slope I decided to continue on. I decided not to let that one bad experience define me. I am not the failure to ski blues, I am the success of keep going on the greens. I create my own definition of success.
Why do I so enjoy something that I struggle with so much? Perhaps because of the struggle. Perhaps because it is a challenge and I want to conquer it.
I like challenges. Several years ago I wanted to learn how to scuba dive but was always terrified of water. I went every night to the YMCA and slowly talked myself into letting go of the borders of the swim pool. Slowly I grew more comfortable in the water. I became certified and and went on a few adventures. I am still not comfortable in the water, but I like that I went ahead and learned enough to be certified and do something I always wanted to try.
But the real answer is that I never feel more free than at the top of a mountain. At that moment there is no work, there is no family, there is no problems or dramas; there is nothing else except getting to the bottom. Often difficult, sometimes scary and even paralyzing, but totally freeing. My definition of heaven!
“Travel makes one modest. You see what a tiny place you occupy in the world.” – Gustave Flaubert
