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My first Pilates session

29 Sunday Apr 2012

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As I tackle items on my “To do list of self improvement”, that I mentioned in a list on my other blog “http://listuniverse.wordpress.com/”, I will be reporting my progress on working on that list right here.

So today I had my first Pilates session.  I feel great.  First for having tackled one item on my list and second for the overall benefit of doing something for my body.

Some of the positions and exercises were a little hard and at times even painful, but it was a good type of pain. The pain of my body being challenged.

G., the instructor is a woman originally from the Dominican Republic that has been teaching for 10 years.  She was great.  Her English was somewhat limited, but it didn’t seem important at all.

I think that she rents space in a house, because I met her at a house that it was clearly she didn’t live there.  You could hear the kids and the other sounds of a household going about on a Sunday morning.

I guess if I were to have one complain it would be that: the noises around us.  But I am not complaining.

The first step on anything is really the hardest, but I also believe that the next phase maintaining and keeping up with some project is probably even harder.

So I bought 10 sessions of Pilates because it will force me to continue with it at least for another 9 sessions.

I realize it is a monetary investment as well because it is not cheap, so I plan on being fully present for each sessions (not let my mind wonder), as well as stretching and attempting some exercises at home also.

What about you, did you ever take a Pilates session?

How about improving yourself, what steps are you taking?

Do every man cheat???

29 Sunday Apr 2012

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I hate to seem bitter and I hate to lose faith in mankind, but I am beginning to think that every man at some point in their lives will cheat.

I just don’t get it!  Why can’t they keep it their pants?  Do they need so much validation that they need to be charming another women?  

Often times the person they choose to betray doesn’t compare to the one they have at home.  I guess, as they say, the grass is always greener on the other side.

I never even thought of looking at another guy.  I was perfectly happy to make love to Ex the rest of my life, and I thought he felt the same way.  At least that is how I took the tears in his eyes when we made love in the beginning.  Yes, it is true, the first few times we made love he cried and I cried, because the connection was so intense. Do have a man cry for you while having sex is just beyond amazing, it made me feel even more certain that he was the one, my Prince Charming. And even now after I moved out, when we made love (and he refuse to call it sex), the way he held me tight just felt incredibly honest.

Women are fools!

At any rate, trying my best, as I tiptoe in E-harmony, to not change myself, to continue to believe that my Prince Charming is out there, to continue to believe in love and fairy tales.

Do you believe in fairy tales?  Do you have your Prince Charming or are you still looking for him?

Yep another post about Ex

29 Sunday Apr 2012

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Sorry I know all I do lately is talk and cry about Ex, but please bear with me I know this will not last forever and at least it got me blogging.

I know things happen for a reason and I know I will be better off alone, but still is so painful.

I long for the day that he will not be the first person I think about in the morning when I wake up and the last person I think about before I fall asleep.

It is still beyond comprehension why would he decide to throw “us” away. We had so much fun together, and still do every time we are together. But it is over.  For some stupid reason I thought I was still going to continue seeing him after I moved out. I did and I could continue to do so, but I recovered my senses.  Why would I want to continue seeing a man that betrayed me and that is putting his dick in every pussy he finds. 

I am forgiving myself for seeing, and when I say seeing, I mean sleeping with him, the few times I did. I love him, what can I do? So that is what women in love do some times, we do stupid stuff and try to rationalize it. I said I was going to be open to love and just love as much as I can, and not put any burdens or ask anything back.  Well that is all fine and dandy, until it all hits you in the face.  WHY?

I am going to be open to love, but that is going forward with the next people I meet.  With him being friends is already more than he deserves.  When I think back, and believe me I do it many times throughout the day, even though I am trying not to, I realize even more lies.  Things fall into places, his sneaky behavior, the major attachment to the phone, the never ending work at the office, etc, etc, 

I plan on continue to be his friend, because I think that holding grudges and carrying anger inside me would me more harm than good, but I plan never ever allowing his lips to touch my lips or any part of my body other than my face for a kiss hello and vice-verse, my sweets and soft lips will never touch anything on him other than his face.

It feels good to come up with decisions such as deals and to realize that I am choosing to love myself. I am getting back some little pride and self esteem.

I am going to save my body and soft lips for the next guy.  The very lucky next guy!

E-harmony here I come!!!