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Feeling broken…

21 Tuesday May 2013

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I have to live as I preach and that means being positive and not allowing anything to bring me down. But lately is has been extremely tough to be upbeat.  I am guessing that is where the virtue lies, to be upbeat when times are difficult! To be upbeat and positive when everything is going well is easy, anyone can do it.

For somebody that never gets sick, this is a whole uncharted territory.  I am going through a terrible rough patch.   This is how I choose to look at it, just a patch that soon will be cleared.  As you know, if you follow me, I have been slowly letting go all of my physical activities because of hip pain.

It has now been months without Zumba, Yoga and Pilates.  The so anticipated spring tennis lessons will have to, hopefully, be summer lessons.   The effects of all this inactivity are starting to show;  I have no energy, I am moody and my clothes are too tight! 😦

I guess the consolation is that what I have is easily fixed.  The doctor promises that with 2 months of physical therapy I will be whole again, well at least functional again.  It is somewhat silly to be such a crying baby when others face so many other more critical problems, but this is severely limiting my life therefore I am allowing myself to be a cry baby today.

I am not sure if I should believe the doctor’s promise or not.  He also said that the cortisone shot right on the hip would take away the pain and inflammation, but unfortunately since the day of the shot I have been feeling progressively worse.

Physical therapy finally starts tonight – yippie!!  I know physical therapy is not a miracle cure and it will take time and effort, but it is just another right step on the road to recovery.

But in the meantime, my body feels broken and disconnected.  I feel broken and disconnected.  Is this what the future holds?  My eye sight is gone, my hip and back want to follow suit.  What other body parts will decide to go?

But then, right when I am feeling my 47 years of age weighing heavily on me I read of another octogenarian or nonagenarian ski diving or doing some other crazy adventure.  Not only that, I don’t have to look far, my 78 yr old mother is a non-stop dynamo.

I realize that growing old has some issues, but it doesn’t have to be the end of good, healthy, active life.  Growing old, like everything else in life, will be what I make it to be.  Growing old well will be the results of the choices I make today.  So it is all up to me!  I am the master of my destiny!

And since it is up to me, I am going to ignore this rough patch and use it as a time for internal growth and contemplation.  So, my body has to take it easy for awhile and regain strength, but my mind doesn’t have to go dormant, my mind has all the energy that it needs and more.

So here’s to more French and Mosaic while I get ready for Tennis and Zumba!

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Day 11- Having Patience, Eating, Reading and Sleeping

02 Friday Nov 2012

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Not much to report, life progresses as normal as it can be under the circumstances.

We continue to work out of a hotel and Con Edison says that it will be still another 4 days until we get the electricity restored.

I am doing my best not to get stressed with all the work that is not getting done, and invoices that are not being sent and therefore payments that will not be coming in.

Trying to see the world through grateful eyes really makes difference, I am taking it all in stride knowing fully well that I am one of the lucky ones.

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Pilates tonight kicked my booty!  If I could only stop eating all the bread and its relatives Mr. Cakes, Miss Muffin, Mr. Scone, Miss Cookie, etc, that I eat my body would look amazing.  But since I can’t my body is still amazing, just not amazing looking.  Oh well, life is too short for me not to eat what I want!!

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I decided that I need to come up with a list of goals for each month.  For November it will be to finish the 4 books that I have sitting on my nightstand!

I am the type of person that needs goals and projects. Not having an aim or a deadline make me feels like I am just drifting through life.  Drifting is fun for a little bit but after awhile just leaves me frustrated.

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I am going to try to sleep before 11 tonight! It has been an exhausting week!

 

Day 3: Sorry Pilates, I will see you Sunday!

24 Wednesday Oct 2012

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Yesterday, against what my body was asking for I went to a Yoga class followed by a Zumba class.

I am all for listening to my body, but lately all it has been asking for is sweets and tv so sometimes I have to put my food down. I figure exercise will help release some toxins and if nothing else will make me forget about the itching for a couple of hours.

 

I am happy I went. The itching didn’t get better but my mood improved!

 

This morning I gave in and went to a doctor. I didn’t go to my regular doctor. I went to Docs, a walk-in place right next to my office. I had been there before and had a good experience, but this morning I had the absolute worst doctor. He kept me waiting forever, paid half attention to what I was saying, would walk in and out of the examining room for long periods of time. I was getting so frustrated and being PMS time everything was taking an extra dimension. I had to stop breath and talk myself out of making a scene.

So finally they drew some blood and gave me a prescription for steroids and now I am back at work.

If you ever had hives, you know that the darn thing travels throughout your body. It has been mostly on my stomach, breasts and thighs, but today it decided to concentrate on my arms and upper back! Lord have mercy!!! I feel like screaming!!!

So tonight I am skipping Pilates. But it is for a very good cause. I am getting my hair and nails done! I love being a girl!!

What I have been up to lately …

28 Friday Sep 2012

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I have been silent – here! In non-virtual life I still talk too much, volunteer and share too much! 🙂  I guess hurting over still loving Ex was providing me with the inspiration/motivation to write.  Once love turned to anger and now to plain nothingness the urge and need to write or I will explode is no longer here.

I still love the written word and wish to find the motivation from within and from daily life to continue blogging.

I lurk around some of my favorite blogs but can’t even seem to muster motivation to comment or even like, perhaps I have been trying to disappear?? At moments like this I wish I had a therapist on speed dial that I could call and ask!

Here is a quick update of my life:

Mom is in town visiting from Brazil, so my routine has been totally changed.  I am exercising less and eating more, which as everyone knows it is not a great combination!!   Mom believes that food is love, so rejecting her food is the same as rejecting her love.  As the good daughter that I am I just eat and say how good everything is!

We have already spent a weekend at Mohegan Sun and Foxwoods Casinos in CT.   We didn’t lose too much so that to me is winning!  We have already done more shopping than will fit in her luggage.  And somehow any time I take her shopping I end up buying more than she does.  A Broadway show and The Museum of Natural History will be next!

The Ex got wind that my mother is in town and has e-mailed me to take us out to dinner.  I have continued to remain silent and ignore it. Still it is annoying the fact that he thinks all is fine enough to go out and have dinner together! Clueless!

Work is work.  No challenges and mysteries any more.  Too predictable at times, it can be boring but there is some comfort in the same old same old.

I continue to do Pilates twice a week and still adore it, even though some times in the middle of an exercise I feel more like crying and giving up.  I continue to hit tennis balls against a wall and take lessons every now and then as weather and my instructor’s schedule permits.

I have not returned to Zumba, for now I do it at home.  I turn on youtube, put on my favorite short shorts and just dance like a wild woman in my living room.  I make sure to close the curtains as not to scare any of my neighbors.

My mosaic project is still in the middle and my French has also stalled.  Will go back to it, but lately not much into forcing myself to do anything I don’t want to! 🙂

I have been seeing a much younger man.  I don’t want to call it dating; in fact I am not sure what to call it.  Yes I know all that is wrong with it!   I am taking it one day at a time and trying not to think too much about it or make too many plans.  I like spending time with him and for now that is enough for me.  I am living the right now and allowing myself not to think of the future.  I know it will not last forever – nothing does!!

I may wake up tomorrow and decide that I want a commitment, but for now dinners out and movie nights are exactly what the doctor ordered.

My first Pilates session

29 Sunday Apr 2012

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As I tackle items on my “To do list of self improvement”, that I mentioned in a list on my other blog “http://listuniverse.wordpress.com/”, I will be reporting my progress on working on that list right here.

So today I had my first Pilates session.  I feel great.  First for having tackled one item on my list and second for the overall benefit of doing something for my body.

Some of the positions and exercises were a little hard and at times even painful, but it was a good type of pain. The pain of my body being challenged.

G., the instructor is a woman originally from the Dominican Republic that has been teaching for 10 years.  She was great.  Her English was somewhat limited, but it didn’t seem important at all.

I think that she rents space in a house, because I met her at a house that it was clearly she didn’t live there.  You could hear the kids and the other sounds of a household going about on a Sunday morning.

I guess if I were to have one complain it would be that: the noises around us.  But I am not complaining.

The first step on anything is really the hardest, but I also believe that the next phase maintaining and keeping up with some project is probably even harder.

So I bought 10 sessions of Pilates because it will force me to continue with it at least for another 9 sessions.

I realize it is a monetary investment as well because it is not cheap, so I plan on being fully present for each sessions (not let my mind wonder), as well as stretching and attempting some exercises at home also.

What about you, did you ever take a Pilates session?

How about improving yourself, what steps are you taking?