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“There is a saying in Tibetan, ‘Tragedy should be utilized as a source of strength.’
No matter what sort of difficulties, how painful experience is, if we lose our hope, that’s our real disaster.” – Dalai Lama XIV
I am as shocked as most people are over the tragedy in Las Vegas. While the Hurricane was also tragic, specially the situation in Puerto Rico, which is heartbreaking, Las Vegas is incomprehensible. The sheer thought that one person alone could cause such atrocity is beyond understanding. It is revolting, scary, and alarming. We can almost understand Mother Nature, but the evil in mankind leaves me speechless.
When will this stop? It keeps escalating. How can owning such weapons be okay? I doubt our forefathers had Automatic Rifles in mind when they decided on the Right to Bear Arms.
I pray for peace. I pray for miracles. I pray for guidance. Prayer is not enough, I understand that. Prayer without action, without doing my part is meaningless. But Prayer brings peace. Prayer brings clarity, brings comfort and solace.
What else can I do, other than sign petitions and contact my local representative? Who is he/she anyway? Are they really representing me?
“If you want to conquer the anxiety of life, live in the moment, live in the breath.” – Amit Ray
S. and I still email daily. I am still not sure if it is going anywhere. At times I want to meet him, other times I want to preserve things as they are.
We had a minor disagreement the other day. I thought it was rude to just leave a conversation and not say good bye, only to resurface several hours later like nothing happened. He said and I quote: “You seem to think it’s not okay to miss someone, even if terribly, and knowing they’ll be back”
I guess he has a point. I also guess he has never been ghosted before. What is annoying is not somebody disappearing; it is not knowing if they will ever come back.
I decided to relax and take it for what it is: a fun friend that comes and goes. Still I enjoy exchanging messages with him and will continue to do so until we either meet, get tired of each other, or get significant others, whatever comes first.
Speaking of meetings, I decided to go back to online dating sites. I miss going out on dates. I miss dressing up, having an alcoholic beverage, flirting and the potential of a second date and a kiss.
I also miss all the different people I meet. I miss their stories. They teach me a lot about myself.
I thought I would do so much with my life while away from online dating but nothing has changed. I am still not blogging as often as I would like.
Oh well, I will not pressure myself about that either.
“If a problem is fixable, if a situation is such that you can do something about it, then there is no need to worry. If it’s not fixable, then there is no help in worrying. There is no benefit in worrying whatsoever.” – Dalai Lama XIV
I am not sure I have mentioned my problem with hives. Yes, besides, back, hip and neck/collarbone issues I also deal with hives. I am damaged goods, or perhaps those are the signs of a life lived well, or perhaps just the sign of a body not being taken care of as a temple.
After consulting with several doctors, including an allergist that assured me I am not allergic to anything: “perhaps a little allergy to dust”, I am still not close to figuring why most days at the end of the day I break out in hives. Most of the time is annoying but not crazy, but yesterday it was just unbearable.
In looking at what I had to eat and what I did throughout the day the only thing that I would consider out of the ordinary for me was having a few slices of salami at dinner time. Could I be allergic to salami, or something in it?
I keep wanting to start a food diary and never do it, perhaps the time to start is now. I had 10 years ago and it was an incredible weight loss tool. I need to do it again.