A quick hello/update before I get on my flight to Brazil tonight.
At work, things were under control until the auditors decided to start asking questions again. They have this uncanny ability to know exactly when I am going on vacation to send me away stressed. This has been a good exercise in setting priorities at work.
The doctor that I had dated (April 2nd post) started sending me flirty texts this week. Even though I wanted to discuss our relationship, or lack thereof, in person I went ahead and took that opportunity to establish that we are friends and that is it.
He seemed surprised (it is really hard to tell on text), but agreed. I was immediately happier for having things clarified. I don’t like murky waters. I like to know where I stand and want others to know where they stand with my. I am always striving for more clarity and less miscommunication.
On Saturday I went dancing with this young guy (36). I didn’t really consider it a date because of the age difference. I had a great time. I only didn’t care for how he wanted to turn a sweet kiss goodnight into endless kisses. I hate to have to say stop/no more than once.
Still he was a sweet guy and perhaps I will see him again.
My suitcases are packed all is missing are the bagels. I have to take at least a dozen bagels every time I go to Brazil.
I am trying not to pack: anxiety, control-freakiness, work issues, expectations, and assumptions.
I am trying to pack: patience, hope, believe that everything is the way it is supposed to be.
My mother’s illness, which the doctors are having a hard time deciphering, is making everything difficult. She has been getting extremely dizzy and tired. She is also more irritable, short of patience, with the smallest of things setting her off. It is a difficult and delicate situation.
Hopefully she will be able to return with me as she does every time I go there. I leaving it all in God’s hands. He knows best! I am just praying for guidance.
Wishing you all much light and blessings this weekend and the week ahead. May many doors open to what is right in your life!