May be if I keep track of small victories they will make stronger to achieve bigger ones.
The victory in questions is the letting go of a friendship that was dragging me down, very one-sided.
This friend only came to me when he needed something. When I needed him he would be too busy. The problem is that I would let go and then in a few months be in the same vicious cycle.
So last week I reached out to him and his email reply was short just telling me that he was working 80 hrs week on 2 jobs. Then he tried to find 30 mins to fit me in. I am proud that this time I just said: concentrate on your jobs. He pushed a little, but I just ignored.
I miss him, but the amazing feeling of power over standing up for myself and knowing that I should not be treated that way is amazing.