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What I have been up to lately …

28 Friday Sep 2012

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I have been silent – here! In non-virtual life I still talk too much, volunteer and share too much! 🙂  I guess hurting over still loving Ex was providing me with the inspiration/motivation to write.  Once love turned to anger and now to plain nothingness the urge and need to write or I will explode is no longer here.

I still love the written word and wish to find the motivation from within and from daily life to continue blogging.

I lurk around some of my favorite blogs but can’t even seem to muster motivation to comment or even like, perhaps I have been trying to disappear?? At moments like this I wish I had a therapist on speed dial that I could call and ask!

Here is a quick update of my life:

Mom is in town visiting from Brazil, so my routine has been totally changed.  I am exercising less and eating more, which as everyone knows it is not a great combination!!   Mom believes that food is love, so rejecting her food is the same as rejecting her love.  As the good daughter that I am I just eat and say how good everything is!

We have already spent a weekend at Mohegan Sun and Foxwoods Casinos in CT.   We didn’t lose too much so that to me is winning!  We have already done more shopping than will fit in her luggage.  And somehow any time I take her shopping I end up buying more than she does.  A Broadway show and The Museum of Natural History will be next!

The Ex got wind that my mother is in town and has e-mailed me to take us out to dinner.  I have continued to remain silent and ignore it. Still it is annoying the fact that he thinks all is fine enough to go out and have dinner together! Clueless!

Work is work.  No challenges and mysteries any more.  Too predictable at times, it can be boring but there is some comfort in the same old same old.

I continue to do Pilates twice a week and still adore it, even though some times in the middle of an exercise I feel more like crying and giving up.  I continue to hit tennis balls against a wall and take lessons every now and then as weather and my instructor’s schedule permits.

I have not returned to Zumba, for now I do it at home.  I turn on youtube, put on my favorite short shorts and just dance like a wild woman in my living room.  I make sure to close the curtains as not to scare any of my neighbors.

My mosaic project is still in the middle and my French has also stalled.  Will go back to it, but lately not much into forcing myself to do anything I don’t want to! 🙂

I have been seeing a much younger man.  I don’t want to call it dating; in fact I am not sure what to call it.  Yes I know all that is wrong with it!   I am taking it one day at a time and trying not to think too much about it or make too many plans.  I like spending time with him and for now that is enough for me.  I am living the right now and allowing myself not to think of the future.  I know it will not last forever – nothing does!!

I may wake up tomorrow and decide that I want a commitment, but for now dinners out and movie nights are exactly what the doctor ordered.

Everything Olympics, Atlanta, Kenny Chesney… A week in my life

11 Saturday Aug 2012

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It feels like ages since I have written anything.  I feel like I am neglecting a best friend.  Truth is I have been paying too much attention to the Olympics, but since it happens only once every 4 years I think my neglect should not only be understandable, but acceptable.

So I will give you a brief summary of what I have been up to:

Last weekend I went to Atlanta to see my friend from here http://atomic-temporary-33385295.wpcomstaging.com/2012/05/29/first-e-harmony-date/  and here http://atomic-temporary-33385295.wpcomstaging.com/2012/06/12/june-12-dia-dos-namorados/

I had a lot fun.  No, there is still not love connection, as I knew it wouldn’t be.  I made sure he knew I was going as a friend.  He understood and behaved accordingly, as I knew he would, otherwise I wouldn’t have made the trip.

While there I went to Coca-Cola World. It was fun trying out all the different types of soda from all over the world and trying to find the Brazilian memorabilia among so many.  I enjoyed taking a picture with the Polar Bear – yes I act according to my surroundings, so taking a picture with Polar Bear was a must.  Still think they should come up with a name for him!

My friend is getting his pilot’s license, so we went flying on a small one engine 4-seater. Never again if I can help it! I found out that even though I love flying, small planes are not for me. It was windy and I got dizzy and nauseous and couldn’t wait to be on firm ground.

This week there was a lot of the same with Olympics watching, work, Tennis, Zumba and Pilates.

I have tickets for today’s Brothers of the Sun Tour with Kenny Chesney and Tim McGraw, and for a second was extremely excited that my long distance friend would just drop everything, jump on a plane and go with me. I tried to sweeten the pot with a Broadway show, but reality won and he didn’t come!

So I right now I am scrambling to find somebody to go with me, sell or give them away. Craigslist is looking more and more attractive.  I definitely don’t want to go alone. I went to see Kanye West alone and had a lot fun, but don’t want to go alone to this one.

I am looking forward to the Olympics this weekend. I can’t wait to watch the final of the Women’s Indoor Volleyball match. It is a repeat of last Olympics, where Brazil came out on top.  May the best team win!!  As a dual citizen I am happy with either team winning, but the US has so many medals already that I can’t help but secretly wish Brazil to win! I am also looking forward to the Men’s soccer final Brazil vs Mexico.

Also looking forward to the closing ceremony as Brazil will receive the torch!  I can’t wait for Olympics 2016 in Brazil!

Clash of the Titans

10 Sunday Jun 2012

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I was one of the 81,994 fans that attended the Clash of the Titans match at Metlife Stadium in East Rutherford, NJ yesterday. That was a record attendance for a soccer match at that stadium!

The game was between my beloved Brazil and our archenemy Argentina.

Brazilians are one of the most friendliest people in the world.  We love all and are loved by all.  But when it comes to our neighbor Argentina things can get a little dicey.

Both countries think they are the best country in South America. Both think they have the best natural resources, most beautiful women, and of course best soccer players.

There is the never ending debate in the soccer world as to who was really the best player: Pele (Brazil) or Maradona (Argentina).

I, and thousands more, was really looking forward to yesterday’s match. And it was all that it was promised and more.  They both had their best players from their national teams (as it was agreed per their contracts).  Brazil brought their  Olympic team, which is a younger team, but equally talented.

I was there with a group of 22 co-workers and clients raging from soccer fans to soccer players to “don’t even know what soccer is”, and the general consensus at the end of the game was that it was an amazing game.

Unfortunately Brazil lost! The score was Argentina 4 goals, Brazil 3.  Of course I wanted Brazil to win, still I have to concede that their best player, Lionel Messi, had an amazing performance.  He scored 3 out of Argentina’s 4 goals.

Everyone, players and fans were well behaved, for the most part.  There was a little scuffle at the last 2 minutes of the game between a couple of players but it was minor and it didn’t really make the game any less great. As far as the fans I didn’t witness any misbehavior, only the usual taunting and loudness.  Mostly all had fun with their loud music, singing and dancing.

I was just a bit confused by the halftime entertainment.  It was not really necessary to have any.  I don’t think any fan would have complained or even mentioned the lack of anything during halftime.

First they brought 3 Argentinian couples dressed in black fancy attires to dance the Argentinian tango … on the grass.  It just looked weird and so out of place, I felt for the dancers.  They should have, at least, put in some type of floor covering.  Then perhaps would have made more sense.  Can you imagine dancing wearing high heels on the grass? the tango nonetheless!

After that they brought Brazilian drummers and male dancers performing soccer skills and some capoeira (a type of martial art and dance).  It was more fitting than tango for a soccer match, but still it was a bit lackluster.

All in all it was a great day with tailgating pre and post game. I cannot believe that even after 2 hours after the game had ended the parking lot where we were was still half full!

It was only a friendly, exhibition match, it didn’t really count for anything.  At the end of the day, we still have 5 stars on our jersey for each of our World Cup wins, while Argentina has only 3!  (sore loser? yep, a little bit!!)

Shuttle Enterprise lands in NY

30 Monday Apr 2012

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As I may have mentioned, or not, my mom spent almost 1 month with me in NY.  She went back to Brazil on April 27, 2012. I took her to the airport around 7pm.  Her flight was scheduled for 10:30pm, but, having had missed flights before due to traffic problems, we leave home with plenty of time.

So we approached JFK at 7:10pm and  we were all surprised to see the Shuttle Enterprise just sitting there on one of the hangars. I almost missed it, if it were not for the driver pointing it out to me. (Yeah I really need to work on my being in the moment and paying attention to my surroundings)

It was sitting piggyback on a jumbo jet. It seemed smaller than one would expect, but I guess it is because I was riding in car looking out of the window.

After being in JFK for awhile, the shuttle will be moved permanently to Intrepid, Sea, Air and Space Museum in New York City

LOVE: Do you know the meaning of the word?

28 Saturday Apr 2012

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.I have to be honest here and say that I have a huge problem with the phrase “I love you”. It is just too overdone.

I guess because I grew up in Brazil and we just don’t go around saying “I love you” all the time and to everyone. Sure we are a loving country, happy country, but we don’t growing up we don’t get overdosed in “I love you”

In Brazil, “Eu te amo” is strong, powerful, meaningful and you don’t hear it too often, at least I never did growing up.  I know my parents and siblings love me but we didn’t go around saying it to each other.  And even now I have a hard time saying it to them because it feels forced and unnatural. 

My mother said “I love you” by cooking us great meals as well as working hard to help my father to put food on the table and a roof over our heads.  That was how love was shown.

Then all of a sudden I move in with Ex 3 years ago and there is an abundance of “I love yous”. We are saying to each other, to the kids, to the dog.  I am saying to his mother. But does anyone really mean it?

Now that Ex and I no longer live together, and now that it is clear that he is seeing other women, he still will say I love you to me. I wish he would be honest and just say “I love me”, because that part is clear. Does Ex really know what love is?

I am not saying that people should stop saying “I love you” altogether, just don’t say as if you say I am taking a walk or something mundane like that.

From now on when you say “I love you” pay attention and ask yourself if you really meant what you just said. Or you just said because you are used to, or the other person was expecting or perhaps you feel good by saying?

I want people to be more honest with their feelings, honor your feelings and only voice them if you feel like it.

At any rate I long to find “the One”, because Ex was certainly not it! And I hope in the future to be able to tell the difference from the fake from the real “I love you”

I don’t think so, I think he and many other Americans just grew up hearing and saying it, but never fully realized its meaning.

Love is strong, is precious, is meaningful. 

You say Love easily, but do you live Love? Words are cheap, easy, I want to see action.  I want to see somebody show love.  Because love means respect, love means honesty.

So please Ex, stop insulting me with your “I love yous”. I no longer care, I no longer buy it!

 

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