“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
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On Saint Patrick’s Day I took the day off to go skiing. My sister and I went to a little Mountain called Thunder Ridge, located in Patterson, NY.
I didn’t want another season to go by without being on skis. I also wanted my sister to try it for the first time. She did and she didn’t care for it. Too cumbersome, too dangerous. I get it. To start skiing at this age of 54 can be scary.
She got an instructor that was awful. Hopefully she will try again next season.
I am still terrified by skiing and yet, still so enamored by it. I love being there in the snow. I like the whole skiing environment. I am still afraid, but continue to love and embrace the challenge.
“The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.” ―
Will I ever be comfortable skiing? I don’t know. What I know is that I will never give up trying.
In my mind I know what I need to do. I know I am capable. I know the mountains and trails I have skied before. Why do I get worst and not better?
I know I need more practice, more time on skis; so I am going to continue trying, Next season I am going to try to go often.
I am thinking of getting one of those multiple mountains passes, either the Ikon or the Epic. Do any of you ever get those?
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I had a follow up visit with the dentist yesterday. He said that the pain I was feeling for 8 days was normal because he was really aggressive in trying to clean the area affected after he removed the implant. All is looking as well as it should. The plan is to wait another 3 months, take x-rays and then decide what to do: put in another implant or leave it alone.
I have a date tonight with a new guy. Stay tuned for the report next time.
Thank you for reading and wishing you all a blessed weekend! ♥♥
“If you are pained by external things, it is not they that disturb you, but your own judgement of them. And it is in your power to wipe out that judgement now.” ―
I like the way you write but I wouldn’t go back skiing. lol. I know exactly what you mean about being too tense or stressed on the mountain to actually ‘enjoy’ it. I was that person. I was determined to get better and do more but then I came to the realization that what I like was the “idea” of skiing. It def wasn’t a natural fit for me and after trying for several seasons I decided to try cross-country….ahhh that’s better….but that’s me.
The same that fear can keep you from doing something it can also cause you to keep doing it for the wrong reasons.
Hope the date went well.
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Hi Faye
Thank you so much for this comment! It makes so much sense, and it is causing me to reflect further on my “love for skiing”.
Perhaps I am indeed in love with the “idea” of skiing. Or perhaps I am in love with the challenge. I will make sure to give cross-country skiing a try.
I am going to write about the date next 🙂
Thank you again and wishing you a blessed week! ♥♥
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It’s always great when we can get our minds thinking in different ways. Skiing…ah sounds so romantic but only if you’re at the clubhouse curled up in front of the fire. lol.
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Good point! We can get stuck even in our way of thinking. Thank you for coming and shaking that up 🙂
Blessings! ♥♥
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Thank you.
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Looks like lot is happening: skiing, dentist , new date 💃🏻🥰
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Indeed! Spring starting, life begins to move fast 🙂 A blessed Sunday to you! ♥♥
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Oh boy — a love/fear relationship with skiing! Yes, me too! And we do have a multi-mountain pass. At 66, this means I can leave when I want without the cost adding to the stress. But I DO LOVE the slopes!
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Hi Donna
I am not alone 🙂 That is what I dream about, retiring, living near a slope and being able to get to it often.
That way I can perhaps find out it this is love or just an infatuation 😉
Thank you for sharing and wishing you a blessed week! ♥♥
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We are heading up this afternoon, staying for 3 days and hoping to ski for 2 of them. If I break anything, I won’t let you know. 😉😄
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hahaha, no you will not break anything!! I predict that you will come back and tell me what amazing time you had. 🙂
Have loads of fun! ♥♥
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Good for you. Courage is facing what you fear.
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Thank you Mark!
Sometimes I wonder: is it courage or foolishness?
Let’s see what next skiing season will bring.
Wishing you a blessed week! ♥♥
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No, it’s courage. 🙂
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Then it is, I will take your word for it! 😉
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