“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.”
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On Saint Patrick’s Day I took the day off to go skiing. My sister and I went to a little Mountain called Thunder Ridge, located in Patterson, NY.
I didn’t want another season to go by without being on skis. I also wanted my sister to try it for the first time. She did and she didn’t care for it. Too cumbersome, too dangerous. I get it. To start skiing at this age of 54 can be scary.
She got an instructor that was awful. Hopefully she will try again next season.
I am still terrified by skiing and yet, still so enamored by it. I love being there in the snow. I like the whole skiing environment. I am still afraid, but continue to love and embrace the challenge.
“The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek.” ―
Will I ever be comfortable skiing? I don’t know. What I know is that I will never give up trying.
In my mind I know what I need to do. I know I am capable. I know the mountains and trails I have skied before. Why do I get worst and not better?
I know I need more practice, more time on skis; so I am going to continue trying, Next season I am going to try to go often.
I am thinking of getting one of those multiple mountains passes, either the Ikon or the Epic. Do any of you ever get those?
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I had a follow up visit with the dentist yesterday. He said that the pain I was feeling for 8 days was normal because he was really aggressive in trying to clean the area affected after he removed the implant. All is looking as well as it should. The plan is to wait another 3 months, take x-rays and then decide what to do: put in another implant or leave it alone.
I have a date tonight with a new guy. Stay tuned for the report next time.
Thank you for reading and wishing you all a blessed weekend! ♥♥
“If you are pained by external things, it is not they that disturb you, but your own judgement of them. And it is in your power to wipe out that judgement now.” ―