“And, when you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.” *
My skiing trip is all planned! Whistler it is! I am so excited about this trip; I am like a kid going to Disney! There are many things that make me happy about this trip, besides the pure love of skiing:
1) Practice makes it perfect. I enjoy realizing that with persistence and practice I can get better at anything I put my mind to it. Nothing is unattainable! I am not going to be an expert but I am going to improve until I am as comfortable skiing as I am walking.
“There is only one thing that makes a dream impossible to achieve: the fear of failure.” *
2) Being challenged. I love how challenging it is for me, and still I know I can conquer it. The falling and getting up multiple times is a great lesson. In skiing I don’t see not falling as a good thing; I see it as I am playing it safe, I am not challenging myself. It is the perfect analogy for life. We can get too comfortable in it and not strive to get better and reach our potential. Our potential as human beings and God’s children is limitless. The sky is the limit; we can have it all and do it all. Keep on falling…and getting up.
“The secret of life, though, is to fall seven times and to get up eight times.”*
3) Freedom from thought. At the top of a snowy mountain is the only place and time in the world where my mind is totally thoughtless. There are times that I stop right at the top and I look around and I actually look for thoughts as I appreciate my smallness in the world. I feel this indescribable peace within me. I feel so infinitely small before God’s amazing nature and yet so powerful and rich. I feel blessed to be able to experience this.
“I’m alive. When I’m eating that’s all I think about. If I’m on the march, I just concentrate on marching. If I have to fight,it will be just as good a day as any to die. If you can concentrate always on the present, you’ll be a happy man. Life is the moment we are living now.”*
4) Being self sufficient. This trip was my idea, my decisions, my planning. I am going alone and I just know it will be even more fun than I dream of. This is a major step to being back to my very confident single self. The world is my oyster, Whistler is just the beginning!
I want to live as I ski, boldly! Falling and getting up, taking chances, combining tiny steps into long strides. Going forward always! Laughing in the face of fear!
“People are capable, at any time in their lives, of doing what they dream of.”*
5) Making new memories. Finally and perhaps most important at this time, I will be making new memories in Whistler. The memories I have of Whistler are all with Ex. I have to give him credit for introducing me to skiing and for making it all as comfortable and fun as possible. It was because of him that I discovered and fell in love with skiing. On the first day when I wanted to give up, he is the one that made me relax and try again. Thank you Ex, I am forever grateful!
“Don’t think about what you’ve left behind” The alchemist said to the boy as they began to ride across the sands of the desert. “If what one finds is made of pure matter, it will never spoil. And one can always come back. If what you had found was only a moment of light, like the explosion of a star, you would find nothing on your return.” *
Speaking of Ex, I realized that I don’t have to rebel and go against and let go of everything I enjoyed with Ex.
“And, when you can’t go back, you have to worry only about the best way of moving forward.” *
- His mother. I don’t have to stop talking to his mother. My relationship with his mother has become even stronger. There was a moment I thought about breaking it off, but I am glad I didn’t. She is a cool person and the love we have for each other is genuine.
“One is loved because one is loved. No reason is needed for loving.” *
- Kansas City Chiefs. I spent a week at their training camp and learned the rules of the game by watching them. I love an underdog because in many ways I feel like one. Immediately after the breakup I gave all my jerseys away in an effort of erasing Ex out of my life, as if it was going to be that easy. I have recently realized that I don’t need to find a new team. The Chiefs are my team and that is final! All they need to do now is win a Super Bowl for me!! 🙂
- Skiing and Tennis. I never met anyone so athletic and so great at all sports as Ex. ( is lying and cheating a sport?). I plan on continuing trying to get better and enjoying both, skiing and tennis as much as possible and as much as my hip and shoulder will allow it.
“We are travelers on a cosmic journey,stardust,swirling and dancing in the eddies and whirlpools of infinity. Life is eternal. We have stopped for a moment to encounter each other, to meet, to love, to share.This is a precious moment. It is a little parenthesis in eternity.” *
The fact is that my new (well, not so new) single life doesn’t have to revert to what it was before Ex. My today is composed of all my yesterdays, of all experiences with every single person that came and comes into my life, even if for one moment. I am a better person today because of all the good and bad experiences that people I have shared life with afforded me. I am not going to try to forget them and pretend they never existed. I am going to rejoice on them, learn from them and build upon them!
“Because I don’t live in either my past or my future.I’m interested only in the present”.” *
*All quotes are from The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho. I was having an Alchemist kind of moment – it was hard not to quote the entire book!