Today Ex came over to show his mom my new place and to go out to dinner.
I had mixed feelings. I love Mom and really wanted her to see my place, but I question seeing Ex often and its effect on me.
Since I had the confirmation of yet another woman in his life and how he is already celebrating anniversaries with her, because as he told me: “She likes it”. With those 3 little words, he killed all the respect that I have ever had for him. It was like I was punched in the stomach. Since then, I have been putting all my efforts into forgetting I have ever loved him as a partner. I am, for the sake of everyone, including me and the moms, trying to love him as a friend.
So, he came over, I showed mom my apartment and we went to dinner at Sweet Potatoes in New Rochelle, NY. I will post the review on a following post.
On meeting him I made sure to avoid his lips and gave him a peck on the cheek and a quick hug. I am sure he was a little taken aback by my not giving him a kiss on the lips and a tight hug.
We went to dinner and enjoyed very much and had pleasant talk about a variety of subjects. Then we returned to my apartment and he attempted to help my put together my sound system.
He got some part working, and I was grateful for that, then they got ready to leave. Mom and I hugged and kissed and it was his turn and I tried avoiding his lips and tight hug, but his lips touched mine.
Still not sure how I feel about that kiss. Actually I know, I felt nothing. I think the spell is broken and I will be able to move on. I am glad that my resolve to not have any romantic or sexual contact with him continues and continues very strong.
Every time I feel my resolve weaken I think of those 3 little words: “She likes it”.