Date 6 with D. was a week ago. We went to a Italian restaurant near my house and had pizzette and wine. We have been meeting every Saturday but yesterday I had already scheduled a sleepover with my goddaughter and her sister so we couldn’t meet then. On Sunday he had to travel for business. We will see each other this coming weekend if he is back by then.
He is such a sweet, nice gentleman, probably a bit more on the shier side than I am used to. We are cultivating a slow friendship, and that is probably the best way to go at this point since we don’t know when his life will be less tangled.
“Don’t be afraid to be confused. Try to remain permanently confused. Anything is possible. Stay open, forever, so open it hurts, and then open up some more, until the day you die, world without end, amen.” – ―
My sister and I will turning 53 this Thursday, March 28. I cannot believe I am that age already. Where did time go? I was 30 yesterday. I have so much to see and do still, it doesn’t seem there will be enough time. How can I make every second count? How can I not lose sight of what is really important in life and not get bogged down in stupidity?
We had so many ideas of what to do to celebrate our birthdays, but again timing is not on our side. I have this audit and other matters hanging over my head and she is getting ready to start a new job on April 1st. She got the job she wanted. It is in a Brazilian financial company that is growing by leaps and bounds. It is entry level but she will learn a lot and there is a lot potential for growth. The salary is entry level too but at this point she can manage on that.
We have so many reasons to be grateful and celebrate! The list is very long. It is easy to get bogged on the adversities. It is easy to take one difficulty and let it take over my life. It is easy to fall into the victim mode. But at the end of the day I know the list of my blessings is immense by any measurement stick.
“You solve it as you get older, when you reach the point where you’ve tasted so much that you can somehow sacrifice certain things more easily, and you have a more tolerant view of things like possessiveness (your own) and a broader acceptance of the pains and the losses.” –
So we decided to just choose a local restaurant that we haven’t gone to before. And because I can be crazy sometimes I decided to let a ghost from the past join us. What is life if not for the crazy moments?
I think I mentioned a guy I dated 12 years ago that texts me every now and then. For the past few years I mostly ignore him since he has a girlfriend and I don’t want any issues. Lately though I started replying to his texts and surprisingly we have become friends. I replied because he was not flirty and seemed genuine about just a friendship. He knows that friendship is the best he will ever get from me and he says he is happy and honored with that.
He had mentioned wanting to buy me dinner to celebrate my birthday. Well, he has been inviting me to dinner every single time we text, but I had decided not to meet him. I changed my mind and said I would meet him. I thought he would not take me up on going out with my sister and I, but he jumped at the chance.
I think it will be fun seeing him again since I don’t even remember what he looks like.
“Here’s all you have to know about men and women: women are crazy, men are stupid. And the main reason women are crazy is that men are stupid.” ―
I continue to prepare all the documentation necessary for the audit. There are moments I go crazy thinking of all the potential issues and all that can wrong. Still there are moments that I am calm and serene. It has been a roller-coaster of emotions.
Slowly I can see the good in this audit. It will be good to see if some of what I am doing is actually up to par to all that is what is required. Did we improve from the last audit? And perhaps it will bring about some changes to what we have been doing. I don’t agree with all that we do and how we do it. We don’t do anything illegal but still I see areas where change would be welcome and would probably make my job easier.
“Make improvements, not excuses. Seek respect, not attention.” –