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I turned 50 years old on Monday and the world didn’t stop 🙂 Nothing really changed. I am not feeling completely renewed or anything like that. There was no huge celebration. It was just another day.
I took the day off as I didn’t want to deal with my co-workers wishing me happy birthday. That didn’t really work as I got all the birthday wishes and cupcakes the next day. This was my sister’s birthday also (we are identical twins), so eventually we will be taking a big trip to celebrate.
I am promising myself to make 50 look like 25!! I want to really wake up for each day and embrace it.
As I mentioned before I have been taking a break from online dating, but I am already starting to get bored. I know, I know that I could be doing many other things other than dating to cure my boredom, but the truth also is that I know my Prince is out there so I intend to look for him, or at least help him find me.
I am now trying to decide what online dating site I will try next. I have tried E-Harmony and Plenty of Fish, and they both had good and bad points. I am thinking of Match or perhaps Ourtime. Any suggestions or recommendations?
Do you remember the doctor that I dated for awhile back last summer/fall? When we dated I thought we would be perfect for each other. We had similar ideas about a lot of things. I thought he was incredible. We were seeing each other twice a week, then he disappeared for a month. Later he started texting again every now and then. I kept an open mind but as time passed and he remained mostly silent I lost interest.
I had not seen him for months but still every time he texted I replied because I still think he would be a cool friend. On Tuesday when he texted I mentioned my birthday the day before and he wanted to take me out to dinner to celebrate. I said yes.
It was awesome! Amazing restaurant, amazing food and drink, but the best part for me was having the confirmation that I have zero interest in him romantically. At the end of the evening I let him kiss me goodnight and I felt nothing.
At one point during dinner I asked him: How is your dating life? He said: You are not allowed to ask that. I started laughing. For many reasons: First because I remember asking him that same question before and getting the same answer, second because I believe I can ask whatever I want, and last because the question was meaningless to me, it was just a conversation topic for me as we were both catching up on each other’s lives. It would have not made a difference what the answer was. I thought it was funny that the thought I would care. I also found him distasteful.
I felt so blessed at that moment. I felt blessed that the answer (or non-answer) that at one point in the past hurt me, now made me laugh. In the past when he refused to answer I thought he was actively dating other people and I felt hurt and a bit betrayed.
I guess he thinks that I am still interested in him romantically. Now I have to decide what to do when he asks me out again, as I know he will. I want to go as friends, but I could tell that he probably thinks that we can pick up where we left off. We can’t! That ship has sailed. The moment is gone. I guess I will cross that bridge when I get to it, and will exercise honesty always!
I love realizing that his disappearing act was a blessing. It was the needed break that was instrumental in my realizing that he is not for me. I was infatuated with him and everything that he has accomplished and I had let that blind me. What a mistake it would have been if things had become serious between us.
For awhile when he disappeared I felt like contacting him. But then I realized gracefully that things and people are removed from our lives for a reason. Sometimes is for us to appreciate them more, other times for us to realize we don’t need them at all, and we are deserving of more. In this case it was the latter.
Wishing everyone a blessed weekend! May you notice all the little miracles around you!