“If the problem can be solved why worry? If the problem cannot be solved worrying will do you no good.” ― Śāntideva
Sometimes I feel my mind is too small to fit in all I need /want to do. I fear things will spill out and get forgotten and never done. It is a weird feeling, but that is my life at this moment…so much to do, so little time, so little money, and no control over anything. So many obstacles… people not doing their job, mishandled orders, parts broken, appointments missed, appointments never scheduled, car not starting, keys lost … but also tiny little blessings at every corner, keys found 🙂
“I may do some good before I am dead–be a sort of success as a frightful example of what not to do; and so illustrate a moral story.” ― Thomas Hardy
On Thursday my multi-tasking, or perhaps my lack of focus, cost the office our beloved toaster. I put a couple of slices of bread in it and went on to do a few (several) other things (mistake #1). All of a sudden someone yells “something is burning”. I ran to the kitchen and opened the oven door (mistake #2) and flames just shoot out. The next few seconds was a blur of panic. Everyone failed to see the extinguisher a foot away. One co-worker unplugged the toaster while the other threw containers of water on it. In the mean time I looking around looking for a blanket or something like that to extinguish the flames, but all I see is paper towels (no, not mistake # 3).
I am happy to report that besides a dead toaster, a wet kitchen, a tiny little burn on my finger (I am not sure how I got it) and being the butt of many jokes the whole day, all is well. Yesterday, Friday (Bagel Day in the office) was just not the same without the toaster. I will buy another one, but I am now looking for one that has some kind of alarm or shut-off button. Any suggestions?
This is both a warning sign and a lesson. Let’s hope I did learn something and will not make the same mistake again. I seriously doubt it… as I write this I am chatting with a Sears representative online, I am doing a company Census, e-mailing the accountant and texting my date for tonight. I need to learn to do one thing at a time and see it to completion before moving on to a new task.
“Maybe we are running from something because we don’t want to find out what we are running from” ― Iva Marija Bulić
Updating my previous post: https://blessedwithastarontheforehead.wordpress.com/2015/01/29/miss-fearless-is-terrified/
The man in question, I will call him Mr. TV agreed to slow things down. It was either that or never see me again – so he chose the first. We are going out tonight. I am coming to the conclusion that the reason why I am rejecting him is because he wants me so much. In his eyes I can do no wrong. It is what I want, when I want. It makes me think of Grouch Marx when he said: “I don’t want to belong to any club that will accept people like me”.
We shall see where this will go… For now I am controlling my need to run away for now.
“Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.” ― Elie Wiesel
Remember my first date after the break up? https://blessedwithastarontheforehead.wordpress.com/2012/05/29/first-e-harmony-date/
He got married! Yes, I have to admit that for a second I had the thought “it could have been me”. He is a wonderful guy with a love for learning and traveling, 2 things that are near and dear to my heart. I see pictures of the happy couple gallivanting around the globe and I do feel a twinge of jealousy. But, the truth is I am very happy for him. It seems he found the right person for him. He and I were not a match, so no matter how unbelievable the life he could have offered me was, it would never make me or him happy.
The crazy part: I was invited to the wedding celebration to be held in March in Atlanta!
The crazier part: I am going!
It would be easier to decline the invitation, but I was never a fan of taking the easy route. I thought for awhile about what his invitation meant and what my accepting it meant. I realize that I do not need to impart any serious meaning or ulterior motive to an invitation for a happy event. Why must we always complicate everything?
“Life is either a daring adventure or nothing at all.” ― Helen Keller