I go through Grand Central Station every week day and it is normally a obstacle course trying to navigate it among the commuters and tourists.
Today it was very different. This evening Grand Central Station was a ghost town with guards standing at the doors just letting people out and informing the people trying to get in that the station is closed.
I feel odd today. I am not sure what to think. Is this Hurricane Sandy a sure thing or just media hype? It feels weird leaving my apartment and my brand new table behind. Is everything going to be there in a couple of days when I return?
I am feeling weird sitting alone in a hotel room in New York City. I am staying in Manhattan to be close to work since the trains stopped 7 pm tonight. I am trying not to let the victim in me come out. I am trying not to feel so alone in the most populous city in the USA. At times like this is very hard not to feel all alone in the world. I need to snap out of it.
My favorite show, Amazing Race is on. Today they are in Bangladesh, and seeing some of the day laborers working in such poor conditions, and seeing all the kids on the street with huge smiles on their faces snaps me out of the “poor me” mentality real quick. I am blessed for so many reasons. I have so many reasons to smile. More than the material comforts I have been blessed with a rich soul and a rich heart.
I know how to appreciate everything I have, specially my breath. Having life is the greatest gift of all and that is enough! So, to spend even a minute feeling sorry for myself it would be such a waste of precious time. I don’t need to have people physically right next to me to know that I am loved. My family is in my heart and in my thoughts and I am in theirs.
To quote E. E. Cummings:
“i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)”