This is the question that I have been pondering over lately.
Do I active seek love or just go about my business and let it find me?
And when I say “love” I mean soul mate, my partner for life, I don’t mean just a date or a roll in the hay.
Because the truth is, I don’t need a boyfriend, but I want one. I do plenty of stuff alone and I adore my own company. But there are a lot moments where it would be could to have a partner.
I am already happy, so I don’t need someone to make me happy. I want someone to share my happiness.
Getting back to love finding me, it should be pretty easy, one would think, since I have been blessed with a star on my forehead. But what I realize that only the special someone will see the star and find me.
Now the question is: Where is he?
Did he give up looking for me and married somebody else?
I thought I had found him, but the truth is I wanted him so much that I made him up. Ex was so charming that I figure this is it.
So, right now I am on e-Harmony. But sometimes it just smells of desperation, of offering myself.
I like to think that I am being pro-active, like they say about the Lottery, you have to be in it to win it, so I guess this is my way of being in it!.
So are you actively pursuing love or are you waiting until it finds you?