I hope you all had a fun Christmas with family and friends, or alone. I spent it alone and it was perfect. I used to lie about spending holidays alone so I wouldn’t have to endure the pity on people’s faces.
I am alone at holidays for the same reason I am alone in life. I don’t want to settle! My family lives in another country and I often don’t travel there on holidays. I guess I also can be sensitive when it comes to invitations. If someone wants you at their house they should say so, instead of saying something like: “What are you doing on Christmas? If you are not doing anything and want to come over”. What kind of invitation is that? To me that it is not an invitation, so I don’t even consider it.
Please don’t you feel sorry for me. Feel envious of me. I stayed in pajamas the whole day. I had cookies for breakfast. I worked with mosaics with the TV on on some Lifetime feel good movie. I would rather be skiing, but this was pretty good too.
Now let’s see what New Year’s eve and day will bring.
“You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.” – Max Ehrmann
An update on my dental issues, or what I thought were dental issues. This afternoon I am going to see an ENT doctor. It has been over 1 month since my dental surgery and I still feel the same way: gums feel weird, a pressure on the left side of the face. It is not a bad pain, it is an annoying pain, a pressure, a constant reminder that something is off. At times if feels as if the nerves in the gum are wiggling, like something is brewing under the skin. When I have that feeling I think good thoughts and I picture my gums growing. I am betting on the power of the mind.
I started a whole program of supplements that my Naturophatic doctor friend prescribed me with the intentions of stimulating the growth of my gums. When gums start receding they don’t grow back. I am intent on trying my best to stimulate them to regenerate themselves or at the very least prevent any further recession. Nothing is impossible to those that believe.
It is the first time that I am hoping to hear from a doctor that something is wrong. If I have a diagnoses then I can start the process of getting it fixed. Otherwise I am back to square one, returning to the dentist. I wonder if the surgery I had was even necessary. The dentist said he saw nothing wrong in the x-ray. I don’t want to be a guinea pig, specially when my gums/teeth is concerned.
I had this implant done probably 10 years ago. I will save the story of how I lost that tooth for a following post. I had to get bone grafts and gum grafts. Once the implant was put in it didn’t look right as the gum refused to be on top of it. Crying I asked the dentist why he didn’t tell me that there was the chance of not working. He said that it works on everyone. I said: I am not everyone. When it comes to my teeth it is always the worst case scenario.
I went to 2 specialists at that time and they both said that there was nothing that could be done. I remember crying in the dentist’s chair. At that point I returned to the original dentist (still my current dentist) who repeated the procedure and made it look a little better.
The number one compliment I get on my pictures online is on my smile. That should have been a clue that it didn’t actually look that bad! People focused on the happiness and not on the perfection of my teeth.
This recent surgery caused the gum over the implant and an adjacent tooth to recede it even more. Now I would give anything to be back to the way things were before. There is a huge lesson here: Be grateful for all you have, even the things that perhaps you are not 100% happy with. Things can change and be taken away from you in a second.
in Brazil we have a saying: “Eu era feliz e nao sabia”. The translation means : ” I was happy and didn’t know it”. We say that when we want to tell someone to appreciate what they have instead of just complaining and wanting more.
Just a thought: Is there anything in your life that you should be grateful for instead of complaining about?
“Do not spoil what you have by desiring what you have not; remember that what you now have was once among the things you only hoped for.” – Epicurus
The New Year provides everyone a chance to shed the old and embrace the new. Some people make resolutions and come up with lists and plans to improve their bodies, lives, etc.
I don’t make New Years resolutions, not because I don’t have anything to improve on or because I don’t have anything I want to change, but because I feel I am constantly thinking of changes. My life is a constant list of improvements. I make resolutions every night as I lay down to sleep and think about my day and everything I want to change about it.
And every time I do that I realize that resolutions never work. Next evening I will be thinking about the same issues and resolving to make a change. It is a vicious cycle. I believe that if you want to make a change, the time to do it is now, not some time in the future. Scheduling changes rarely work.
Start whatever you want to change now. Start living the life you want now.
I am guilty of not accomplishing things that I plan to start in the future. Things that I stick to and see to completion are things that I resolved and started on that very moment the decision was made.
I once gave up chocolate for one year. A fact that shocked everyone as I used to be a chocoholic. I started on a Friday afternoon. Ex looked at me and after laughing at my crazy idea proposed that I should start on Monday. I said I have to do it now or I will never do it. I am proud to say that for one entire year I had no chocolate of any kind. If I had scheduled to start on Monday I would never have done.
With all that being said I do have plans for 2018. I want a simpler 2018. I want to simplify,minimize and declutter my home, my office, my life. I want less of anything material. But I have already started that process. I am attacking my closet like I have never done it before. Unlike I have done in the past I am not just shuffling things around and making little difference. This time I am being really drastic about it.
I always like organization and cleaning . I feel lighter, it is cathartic and empowering. As it is I don’t normally hoard anything, but I have realized that I have candles, wine, perfume, underwear, some clothing, some shoes, etc, all waiting for a perfect occasion.
The special occasion is now, the important person it is me!!
Tomorrow may never come and if it does I will go out and buy what I need, or even better, the Universe is always one step ahead of me and it provides me with everything I need when I need it.
“Good resolutions are like babies crying in church. They should be carried out immediately.” -Charles M. Sheldon