He was a hurricane!
I was going to call him a tsunami, but I dont want to give him too much credit either!
He leaves destruction in his wake. After him nothing is the same.
How does a hurricane happen? Did I miss the warnings? Did I think that it was just a little wind? No matter! All of a sudden it sweeps you up and before you know you are in the middle of it holding on for dear life.
Hurricanes shake you up, often leaving one homeless, powerless, pet-less, faithless. But the good thing with destruction, if there can be said that there is a good thing, is that after destruction one gets to rebuild life. After a tragedy one is not the same and cannot stay in the same place. Among the ashes, among the crumbles, one gets to discover what he/she is really made of.
You end up losing a life you knew. You lose the you that you thought you were! There is the before and the after the hurricane. There is nothing you can do to change “before the hurricane” but “after the hurricane” is yours to mold any way you see fit.
You get to make choices: Where to build, how strong to build, do you want a fence, what color to paint, you get to hurricane proof your house and you any way you wish. You get to reinvent yourself!
Sure you wish the hurricane had never happened, but you have to learn to accept certain things as acts of Gods, acts of nature or perhaps just life lessons and learning experiences that happen for a reason perhaps later revealed when you are wiser and ready to see it and accept it.
You also have to accept your role in it! Did I do anything to contribute to this? Was I behaving in a way that made it easier to attract a hurricane? Did I encourage the hurricane? Could I have in anyway avoided it? Had I become so weak that a simple wind had effect of a hurricane? Only by looking for and accepting my role in the situation will I be able to make sure that the events and patterns do not keep repeating themselves.
The calm after the hurricane is invisible, it is silent, it is scary. Did I survive it? Did it really end it? Then there is despair and what you make of it! From the depth of despair you find hope and compassion. From the depth of despair you find beauty and freedom. From the depth of despair you find you!
You have forgiven the hurricane! You have even thanked him for the lessons he taught you! You move on!
If anything you can just pat yourself in the back, beat on your chest and say: I survived a hurricane!
Well, perhaps my t-shirt is not ready to say: “I survived a hurricane!” Perhaps it can only say: “Finding ways to rebuild!”