“If pain must come, may it come quickly. Because I have a life to live, and I need to live it in the best way possible. If he has to make a choice, may he make it now. Then I will either wait for him or forget him.” ―
I cannot say I am surprised. He had canceled twice before we finally met. Cancelation is in his blood.
I had a feeling he would. I noticed a certain distance in the texting yesterday and he skipped the nightly phone call.
This morning at 7am I texted him. I was not going to reach out but I decided not to be waiting the whole day wondering if a date would or would not happen.
Here is the exchange:
I am not assuming anything about him at this point. I am not dismissing him or thinking it is all over. What I know is that if this is the way it is going to be then it will not work for me.
I remain open-minded with an open heart. I met him in person and he seems like a good person. Just perhaps not good for me. We will see what happens. Your guess is as good as mine.
“You can cut all the flowers but you cannot keep Spring from coming.”
By the way, he also mentioned the other day that his trip overseas was canceled due to some of the people that were going with him having Visa issues.
So many questions about so many things. His health issues and injuries. His work overseas. His time in the war. I was hoping to continue my interrogation tonight 🙂
“Remember, Hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things, and no good thing ever dies.” ―
Thanks heaven for good friends. My friend A. texted me to wish good luck on the date tonight. I actually met A. on a dating site in 2015. We went on a couple of dates and then just became best friends. Our friendship keeps blossoming, and I am grateful for that.
I am not feeling down but so appreciate his attempt to lift my spirits.
Here is his reaction:
“Strange as it may seem, I still hope for the best, even though the best, like an interesting piece of mail, so rarely arrives, and even when it does it can be lost so easily.” ―