“I must have a prodigious amount of mind; it takes me as much as a week, sometimes, to make it up!” ―
Perhaps you will recall that I had been thinking of quitting my job. October and November were really tough months dealing with a new employee and feeling I was not getting any support from the other partners.
I decided to take everyone’s advice (thank you all!) and not be rash in my decision. Even though I still dream of doing something else in the future, for now I am staying put.
“You are not the victim of the world, but rather the master of your own destiny. It is your choices and decisions that determine your destiny.” ―
A change in attitude is everything. The woman in question and I butted heads over a specific task that I needed her to do. To preserve my sanity I delegated the supervision of that function to somebody else. It was hard delegating something that I created and took pride in doing, but at the end of the day it was one of the best decisions I ever made. Letting go of having control was hard but it was absolutely the right decision.
It is a fine line between letting go and no longer caring about the job. I can still care and not be a control freak.
“The most critical time in any battle is not when I’m fatigued, it’s when I no longer care.” ―
At first she would not talk or even look at me. Still I conducted myself normally and in a friendly manner. I can’t hold grudges, and even if I could I am still a professional so I would still treat her well. After I stopped talking to her about work things got much better.
She is trying hard now to be my friend. She is trying too hard. She even wants me to go get a massage with her. I am going along with the conversation but I am not becoming a best friend and doing stuff outside work.
I can appreciate the effort but I am proceeding with caution. I am not that gullible to think that her efforts are genuine.
“At fifteen life had taught me undeniably that surrender, in its place, was as honorable as resistance, especially if one had no choice.” ―