“Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself.” -Rumi
I am special, but not unique. Everyone has problems, big and small. What makes the difference is how we choose to handle them.
My plate is still full of problems and headaches at work and at home, but I am back to wearing my rose-colored glasses, so all is changed. An adjustment in attitude and perception changes everything. I am taking ownership of my problems, instead of letting them own me. I am actually enjoying them for the immense opportunity they offer. I am relishing in the knowledge that they will not last forever. This too shall pass!
I am also battling a bad cold this week that has left me achy and unfocused. For a second I felt overwhelmed and like a victim. It seemed everything was happening at once. Why can’t problems and illnesses call in advance and make an appointment? I could just say : No, this week I have a cold scheduled, come the following week. 🙂
Now for the good stuff: My boyfriend took me skiing in Vermont last weekend. He knew I was dying to go skiing so he made it happen. Too bad he couldn’t do anything about the weather. We had to take our skiing lessons in the rain. It was awesome anyway.
While in Vermont we also went to see comedian Jim Breuer. He was great, but so loud (am I getting old?). The comedian that opened for him, Chris Monty, was hilarious. It was great to spend a weekend of laughter and adventure, and forget about problems. Well, a tenant called complaining about water issues in the middle of Sunday, but I was able to make some calls and then get back to the fun. Anytime issues came to mind I would get into the gratitude mode and just chant: thank you, over and over again. It works!
MF, the boyfriend, is so sweet. He is trying hard to make me happy and make this relationship works. Still cautious and unsure, I proceed taking one day at a time.
There was a moment in Vermont when I made him uncomfortable. We were in a pub after the comedy show and I decided to have, not one, but 2 cosmopolitans. I will normally have a glass of wine or a cocktail when out socially, 2 max. I never got drunk and don’t want to start now. I am a control freak so the idea of being drunk terrifies me. Still one glass is enough to make me even friendlier and happier.
There weren’t that many people in the pub and at one point I hugged and kissed him. He called it making out; I thought it was just flirtatious behavior. I don’t think it was bad, I know how to behave. He is very shy, I am very not. He had mentioned he had no problems with PDA so I was a little taken aback by his discomfort. He doesn’t want to make a big deal of this difference and says he will be able to adjust. First, I wonder if someone can really change and second, I wonder if I want someone to change for me…
“Love can change a person the way a parent can change a baby- awkwardly, and often with a great deal of mess.” – Lemony Snicket