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I am right now sitting at terminal 38 at JFK airport waiting to board a flight to Brazil. This post will be extremely short as it is a major pain to type on a tiny tablet.
Arghhhh I am about to start pulling my hair out…oops, just realized I am sounding and acting like a spoiled teenager – ugly!!!!!!!
Summarizing:
• going to Brazil to visit family and get my Mom
• Mom has been sick so we hope the doctor clears her to travel.
• We are supposed to come back from Brazil in one week, spend 5 days in NY then travel to Israel
• All is in the air now depending on tests and test results.
The last few days/weeks have been very challenging:
• Buying a larger apartment
• Finding a tenant for smaller apartment
• booking the trip to Brazil and to Israel for mom and I
• having a birthday. Tuning 49 is no picnic. There was this sense of finality, finity and finitude (are these all the same? I just want to make sure you get my feeling that life is almost over!
• severing ties with a friend (will write about it as it is painful and I still working on this pain and other feelings.
•but worst of it all was my mom getting ill!! There is this sense of powerlessness, lack of control over anything. Being far doesn’t help!
This is another chance to practice acceptance. Another great chance to show how much I believe in God and the Universe.
I am in control of nothing, absolutely nothing. The moment I understand and acceptance this one fact is the moment fear and worry release its grip on me.
Another chance to work on my feelings, reactions and over-reactions.
Another chance to show gratitude for all the blessings already received.
As long as I do 100% as a daughter, as a human being, as long as I honor and respect people and nature, as long as I have a grateful heart I am will be okay no matter what.
My prayer continues to be for guidance, acceptance and strength!
Dear God, don’t give me what I want, give me what I need and the tools to deal with it!
A wonderful Easter to All! Thank you for being there – that knowledge alone comforts me!
Blessed with a Star on the Forehead 
Safe travels, and a blessed Easter
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thank you! Back safely with Mom! I hope all is well with you! Blessings! 🙂
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I hope it was a great trip for you both.
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Have a safe flight!
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It went well! Thank you! 🙂
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Have a safe and wonderful trip.
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Hi Noelle. Mom has returned with me, so that has been a blessing! Thank you! 🙂
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I do hope your mother will be all right…my own mother lives far away, so i know what you mean about distance. Fingers crossed that all goes well.
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It is hard being away, but she is here now. She is slow going but we see improvement, so I am grateful and hopeful. Thank you so much! Blessings! 🙂
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A forty nine is a teenager to a seventy five year old. A good Easter to you too and hope mum feels better.
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🙂 I do behave like a teenager sometimes lol She is slowly improving…Thank you! Blessings! 🙂
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Acceptance is a word that came to me during my meditation time this morning. It’s a powerful word. Wishing you safe travels and lots of love + light!
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One trip done, another to go, so far so good! Love and light needed and appreciated – thank you so much! Blessings! 🙂
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Praying for you and your Mom xx
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Your prayers are appreciated! Blessings! 🙂
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Good luck with everything. May you find strength to handle the days to come.
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Thank you for the good wishes! Blessings! 🙂
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May all be well for your Mom and for you too.
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Thank you so much! Blessings! 🙂
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Well, some things you cannot control but you can control your own feelings, your own attitude and you how you react on things. Since you have written this time passed and I am hopeful that everything worked out. Always hope for the best and I pray. I do hope your mum is better and everything goes as planed. Big hug!
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Hugs and prayers to your family… you are incredible, and very much young at heart!
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Thank you so much for your prayers and hugs! Blessings! 🙂
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