” I long to accomplish a great and noble task, but it is my chief duty to accomplish small tasks as if they were great and noble.” – Helen Keller
The year had a slow start for me. I guess I had unreasonable expectations for the beginning of the new year. It is like I expected to wake up in the first day of the new year and magically everything made sense, work magically became less stressful and I again started exercising daily at 5am.
The truth was not even close. I didn’t magically become this dynamo of motivation and energy.
Work is now even more stressful. I continue toying with the idea of making a change, working part-time or even quitting. (but I am realistic also)
I haven’t been sleeping through the night in a couple of months (I blame hot flashes), so even though I wake up in time to exercise I can’t make myself get up and go.
10 days into the new year I realize that I need to get going or I will spend the whole year just dreaming and planning to get things done but not really doing anything. It is not magic or wishful thinking but hard work that makes one succeed.
A new day on the calendar doesn’t mean a miraculous new beginning, but it does present a magical chance to start over. Nothing can be done about yesterday, but today is all mine to get stuff done.
“Don’t judge each day by the harvest you reap but by the seeds you plant.” – Robert Louis Stevenson
I am snapping out of this stupor that I have been on the last couple of months and get going. I have taken some baby steps and here they are:
- Flooring. I am finally getting the floor of my bedroom done after being stuck in indecision and overthinking. I went to Home Depot and chose the color and material it in 5 minutes. The color chosen is below. Feeling accomplished!
- Unclogged pipes. After spending months with bathtubs and sinks draining slowly and waiting for the plumber to get back to me, my sister returned from the grocery store with a Drano kit that comes with a plastic snake. I laughed at it, but I was proven wrong. This plastic snake cleaned years of dirt, hair, and other gunk. It worked like magic. No more waiting for plumbers to get back to me. Feeling powerful!
- Mosaics. I love working with them but I keep waiting for the right time and place to continue developing this craft. I was going to rent a studio, then decided against spending the money. I finally found a place to learn and work with mosaics. I just sent them an email and I am waiting for the class/workshop times. I am so excited to get back to that passion.
- Dating. After months of not feeling motivated to be dating or talking to anyone online, this week I finally logged in and chatted to a couple of nice (hopefully) people. While I still didn’t schedule any dates I feel ready to get back to it. Feeling fun and hopeful again.
- Exercising. I am still not exercising in the morning but I am doing something every evening even if it is just dancing to a few song or some lunges and squats.
I am so far from where I wanted to be or thought I should be at this moment in time. All I have to say is that I am aiming for movement. Whatever I can do not to feel stuck. One step at a time, one day at a time. I will get there.
Be not afraid of growing slowly, be afraid only of standing still. – Confucius