I did what I said I would never do! I signed up for e-harmony again! (Another wonderful thing about me: I allow myself to change my mind!!)
Even when you are no longer a member at e-harmony you still get emails from them with matches that want to get to know you, so one of them peaked my interest enough to want to check it out.
I have been casually dating someone, but he and I know this relationship is not going to get anywhere. He is a great guy, but the age difference and the different priorities in life are too much for us to overlook. Still we enjoy going out to dinner and sharing a bottle of wine every once in awhile.
This time e-harmony has been a very different experience then last time. I am still using the same profile I had but now I am getting many more matches and more of them interested in talking to me. So, so far quantity is good, as far as quality we shall see. I think it has to do with my being open to the experience and not just wanting to find someone to replace Ex.
I went on one date with a great guy at a great restaurant, great conversation, but no chemistry on my side. He wants a second date, but I said no. There was one date which was just weird (I will write about in an upcoming post). I have canceled 2 dates after I had already agreed on them, I really knew it wouldn’t work so I didn’t want to waste their time and my perfume. And I am exchanging emails with a few interesting guys, so to me this has been a success already. (talk about low expectations- lol)
I think everything in life is a question of timing. I believe in Divine Timing and I know that things will happen when they are meant to happen and if they are meant to happen. The worst that could happen to me is that I end up alone, and that, I have to tell you, is not bad at all because I adore my own company! 🙂 But with that being said, I think having a partner is much more fun. So, until Divine Timing happens and that amazing guy knocks on my door, I will play Master of my own Destiny and use whatever tools I have at my disposal to look for that special someone.
I enjoy the fact that with e-harmony I am able to meet people from all walks of life.
Please don’t understand this post as an endorsement for e-harmony or any other online dating. I am just saying that it works for me as a distraction and it helps me feel that I am in control (there I go again with that illusion that I am in control of anything) of my dating situation.
And if you do decide on an online dating site, the key word is safety! I don’t give my phone number or address to anyone. If something feels weird I stop communication immediately. I listen to my gut!!
The moment I think a guy warrants a second date then that will be the end of my romance with Mr. Too Young (I told him about e-harmony). It wouldn’t be right or fair to anyone involved, and I am not one to be juggling men! Well I never tried, perhaps I could be a natural… just kidding!!!
In the meantime EX emails again persisting on letting me know he doesn’t understand why I don’t want to see him, and still professing his love for me. He is not talking about getting back together (not that I would, I just find it hilarious that he continuous to say that he loves me deeply while with a new girlfriend in his arms.) I no longer have the energy to try to explain it, so I just continue to say: no, thank you!