Daily Archives: March 9, 2012

Date with ex!!!

09 Friday Mar 2012

Posted by in EX Files

≈ 2 Comments

I can’t lie I am very excited about seeing ex tonight. We will probably go out for a bite, come back to my apartment, I will make my delicious popcorn and we will watch a movie.  Of course there will be sex at one or various points during the evening.

I am giving myself permission to enjoy ex and his presence.  I know everyone, and I mean everyone disagrees with me and thinks I am setting myself up for heartache.  Well, my heart I already broken.  When I was moving out of ex’s house I though I was going to die, that is how painful it was.  There will be no other pain like that. I was a basket case, calling my sister, that lives in another country upwards of 10 times a day.

So now, I see as enjoying the calm after the storm. I braved through the storm, why not enjoy the calm?

to be continued …

Fear, Fear, Fear

09 Friday Mar 2012

Posted by in Finding Me

≈ Leave a comment

I realize now how much fear has hindered me and held me back! Me! Me! Strong me! I am this person that everyone thinks is so strong and for the most part I am.  And today I looked back and realized I am not as fearless as I thought!

Today I vow to stare fear in the face and laugh! Actually to welcome it as steps to get me to a higher ground!!

There were times in the past that I had the chance to step up and speak up and start a new project and I didn’t for fear.  Fear of failure, fear of rejection.   I will no longer do that.  I will begin searching for projects that will put myself out there.  I will either swim or sink, but I will enjoy and grow strong doing it!!!

Here is to the success that eventually will come!!

I love all these realizations!!!!