“As I walked out the door toward the gate that would lead to my freedom, I knew if I didn’t leave my bitterness and hatred behind, I’d still be in prison.”― Nelson Mandela

I hurt for George Floyd’s family.  May his soul rest in peace, and may God comfort his family.

I am at a loss for words, and I am sure I am not the only one.  My heart and soul hurts.  Why can’t we all just live in peace? Yes, I know that it is naive of me, but I dare to still dream.

Discrimination and prejudice is alive and well in the US, as well as in Brazil.  Instead of progress in the race for equality it seems we have taken huge leaps backwards.  Specially now that we have presidents that made it okay to be racist and to discriminate.  I say presidents because our Brazilian president, Bolsonaro, is just the tropical version of Trump. 

I don’t want to assign blame and point fingers, but I think I am entitled to have expectations of the president of a country.  I expect a president to lead the country in unity.  I expect him to lead by example in treating everyone the same.  I expect him to quickly condemn racism and mistreatment of the minorities. 

“I am not a saint, unless you think of a saint as a sinner who keeps on trying.”― Nelson Mandela

That is not what is happening. Instead both presidents seems to condone violence and discrimination.  Trump,  from the beginning with all the talk about the Mexican Border Wall has preached separation and discrimination.  I expect presidents to build bridges and to bridge gaps, and not to build walls and applaud division.

Trump made it okay for the racists to come out in the open. It seems that now they can hate and discriminate out in the open.  I feel he gave the green light to hate and to attack.

I am hurting for 2 countries that I love.  I am hurting for my brother and sister that because of their skin color live in fear.  I am hurting for those that have no voice because of their social standing and social economic condition.  I am hurting for the ones not free to express their religion or sexual orientation.

I am hurting for the black mother that sees their child go out of the door and can only pray that they will return safely home.

I pray.  I pray for awareness.  I pray for each person to look inwards and start spreading love. I pray for peace and miracles.

“No one is born hating another person because of the color of his skin, or his background, or his religion. People must learn to hate, and if they can learn to hate, they can be taught to love, for love comes more naturally to the human heart than its opposite.”― Nelson Mandela

No matter your belief or where you stand, you cannot deny that George Floyd’s death was was murder.  His life was completely disregarded by the one’s tasked with defending and protecting life. It didn’t need to happen.  It could have been easily avoided. And he is not the only one to die in such a senseless manner.  He is only the last one.  

We need the police.  I am grateful for the officers that every single day risk their lives to protect me.  But there is huge problem that needs to be addressed.  Not everyone is qualified to perform that job.  They need to be better trained.  Complaints of brutalities need to be taken seriously.  The good officers need to have a safe environment to speak up against the bad ones. 

What can I do?  I will continue doing what I have always been doing.  I will continue treating everyone the same.  I will continue donating money to causes that I think are important, specially focusing in education, children and the elderly.  I will continue listening when my brother/sister speak.

“Education is the most powerful weapon which you can use to change the world.”-Nelson Mandela

So many tragedies.  Still, I dare to be positive.  I dare to look for blessings.  I dare to expect miracles. I dare to see angels. I dare to still be happy.  I dare to search for the meaning and the lessons.

I stand with goodness.  I stand with God.  I stand with following the law. I am against using violence to protest violence. Please if you are marching to protest be careful, and do so peacefully.  Tearing down our neighbors property, and causing injure to others is not the answer.

I don’t have any answers.  I have prayers and love and I will continue to spread those.

“I am fundamentally an optimist. Whether that comes from nature or nurture, I cannot say. Part of being optimistic is keeping one’s head pointed toward the sun, one’s feet moving forward. There were many dark moments when my faith in humanity was sorely tested, but I would not and could not give myself up to despair. That way lays defeat and death.”― Nelson Mandela