“Do you want to know who you are? Don’t ask. Act! Action will delineate and define you.” -Thomas Jefferson

I fought for my vote yesterday.  I had not changed my address since I last moved, but I knew that I would still be able to vote as I had moved within in the same county.  I printed the law reference and description and brought it with me.  It came in handy as I was originally turned away.  I had to point out the law and explain it (scary to see the misinformation of the people working there ).  I was finally allowed to vote via affidavit.  I wanted to make my voice heard and not sit idly by.

I felt proud to do my part.  My vote for Hilary was not really a vote for Hillary but a vote against Trump.  I never cared for Hillary but I felt I had no choice.  I could never support a loose cannon, a power hungry, egomaniac bully that thinks he has all the answers and is better than everyone else.

When the election results started coming in my mood started growing somber.  I decided to just to go to bed.  I had a doomed feeling in the pit of my stomach.  I was hoping for the best but deep down inside I knew things were not going to go as I had hoped.

“I know in my heart that man is good, that what is right will always eventually triumph, and there is purpose and worth to each and every life.”  – Ronald Reagan

I woke up at 4am (I have been waking up at 4 since I returned from Brazil) and I had texts from the musician (my date from a previous post) pronouncing his dismay. I tried to go back to sleep immediately in the hopes that this was just a bad dream.

I couldn’t.  I couldn’t stop my mind from thinking, from fearing, from predicting doom.  I couldn’t get the sadness out of my heart.

I am stunned! What happened?  How can a bully win as the president of the USA? What will be the future of the land of opportunity? How can I still be a proud American?

I hate to compare it but I feel like I felt when Brazil lost 1-7 to Germany at the World Cup.  This feels upside-down, absolutely wrong!  It is incomprehensible!  There is no world order!  While that was just a game that tucked at my heart strings; this is the future of a country, and I dare say the world, something not to joke about it.

“Let us never negotiate out of fear. But let us never fear to negotiate.” – john F. Kennedy

I am always so positive and can find a silver lining in anything and here I am, empty, grasping at straws!

I want to believe that out of great tragedies there will come great miracles. Perhaps there will be more unification against the fear of separation.  Perhaps there will be more love against the fear of rampant hate.

I hope, I believe, I pray!

Can a bully grow a heart?

Can the power hungry be fair?

Can an egomaniac think of others before himself?

Can the proud find humility in his heart?

Can he see and treat woman as equals?

Can he learn to listen to advice?

Can he respect opinions?

Can he be a good neighbor?

“I hope I shall possess firmness and virtue enough to maintain what I consider the most enviable of all titles, the character of an honest man.” -George Washington

Some times when I am watching a movie and at the end, well, there is no ending, I just sit there refusing to leave, dumbfounded that I was forced to sit through 2 hours and get no ending.  This is how I feel.  I don’t want to get up and accept that this is it! I want an ending.  I want a happy ending.

The US is starting to look like Brazil and I don’t mean the good stuff, warm hearts, friendly people, party atmosphere. I mean the upside politics, the powerlessness feeling of people, the doom and gloom of an uncertain future!

It is humbling and depressing!  A time to reevaluate, to act, to do!

May we unite and not divide!  We have a new president and may he be blessed with wisdom! May his be a government of fairness, justice, equality, progress, unification, love and respect!

Miracles do happen! Lets believe together! Peace First, Peace Always!

“Courage is not having the strength to go on; it is going on when you don’t have the strength.”  – Theodore Roosevelt

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